Velvet was plastic,
Velvet is plastic
Velvet is melting
into
my mouth
where things are
tasteless
always tasteless,
courteous to things
unreal
don't you want to know me?
don't you want to
before all the velvet
is gone?
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Light That Haunts Shadows
I think it was
gallons of harmonics, shifting the air,
or seeing deep anxiety, superficial
aching stains of neon perfection,
(in my attempt to comprehend the
consequence, the product of crafted
matter between your eyes) that furthered
this snaking weightlessness
the apricot ivy of fingers, toes tapping,
bridging the plasma of feelings desensitized
by the slaving man's owner, Realism--
joyful concept treasures, disintegrating
in acid rain, wonders that die before
the first fall of winter, the little things
in you that button up tight when the right
pair of eyes trickle with light
that haunts shadows,
all that's deemed strange, useless,
in a boy's mechanical
Universe.
gallons of harmonics, shifting the air,
or seeing deep anxiety, superficial
aching stains of neon perfection,
(in my attempt to comprehend the
consequence, the product of crafted
matter between your eyes) that furthered
this snaking weightlessness
the apricot ivy of fingers, toes tapping,
bridging the plasma of feelings desensitized
by the slaving man's owner, Realism--
joyful concept treasures, disintegrating
in acid rain, wonders that die before
the first fall of winter, the little things
in you that button up tight when the right
pair of eyes trickle with light
that haunts shadows,
all that's deemed strange, useless,
in a boy's mechanical
Universe.
August in a Snow
Finding August in a snow
(flake that pinches tightened cheeks)
plucks an honest, silent woe
that dyes the blue-black-haired in bleach.
Strung amidst the atomic hush,
(words that hide in hunted trees)
one cannot shake the simple must
while moon peels the orange eve.
Those Pisces lips deal heavy hands,
in bandaged, sallow eyes of sleep,
'til sun finds Pisces an empty man,
and little wonders left to keep.
(flake that pinches tightened cheeks)
plucks an honest, silent woe
that dyes the blue-black-haired in bleach.
Strung amidst the atomic hush,
(words that hide in hunted trees)
one cannot shake the simple must
while moon peels the orange eve.
Those Pisces lips deal heavy hands,
in bandaged, sallow eyes of sleep,
'til sun finds Pisces an empty man,
and little wonders left to keep.
Friday, February 4, 2011
somewhere
"Sink my bones
in the shallowest moat,"
I heard Ella say,
dressed to the nines--
with her shoes untied,
flowers for eyes, and
glass palms full of sand
slipping through two hands.
We owned no castles
to paint on easels
but if we did, I'd know
it was her magic lie,
with walls so high
they brushed heaven's tide
where they swept up a smile
lost somewhere
in the desert.
in the shallowest moat,"
I heard Ella say,
dressed to the nines--
with her shoes untied,
flowers for eyes, and
glass palms full of sand
slipping through two hands.
We owned no castles
to paint on easels
but if we did, I'd know
it was her magic lie,
with walls so high
they brushed heaven's tide
where they swept up a smile
lost somewhere
in the desert.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
The "Narcissistic" Poet
Last Friday I encountered a few choice words from my Creative Writing teacher that I found interesting. He was looking over my poetry, making editing comments about it, asking me what certain things meant or why I put them there. He then told me that, "you can't be imcomprehensible. You need to be accessible."
But what does that really mean?
Let's take a moment to break this down.
As a poet, it is your duty to express yourself, whether yourself be concise, chaotic, peaceful, sick, loving, angry, alive, or dead. Whatever it is that you are in that moment--you must express that.
And poet's are not there to express what they think is accessible. Quite the opposite, actually. Poetry, art--is narcissism. It's replicating something of yourself that others can love, for others to love. It is duplicating yourself for the purpose of enjoyment, for the purpose of awe. Understanding is really only a by-product of the general enjoyment of poetry. Let me explain.
There are many things you consider when writing a poem. For me, meaning hardly comes first-- a feeling comes first. I hardly ever have an ending in mind when I start writing. And why? Because I enjoy poetry, mostly, for how it looks, how it sounds.
The by-product is understanding.
If it sounds like something beautiful, I feel like it is beautiful. If the array of words looks physically beautiful, I feel like it is beautiful. If there is a meaning in it, it is beautiful. But who knows what was going through the poet's head at the time? By the given poem, no one excet the poet.
To say that you must alter your art for the general public--for accessibility--is not only stifling expression, but underestimating the audience. It is saying, "If I don't understand this, no one will." It is blatantly limiting the beauty of poetry.
And all of that feels unnecessary. There is not one meaning in poetry--there's a thousand meanings. There's probably more than a million.
But "it is not necessary to understand--only necessary to love".
But what does that really mean?
Let's take a moment to break this down.
As a poet, it is your duty to express yourself, whether yourself be concise, chaotic, peaceful, sick, loving, angry, alive, or dead. Whatever it is that you are in that moment--you must express that.
And poet's are not there to express what they think is accessible. Quite the opposite, actually. Poetry, art--is narcissism. It's replicating something of yourself that others can love, for others to love. It is duplicating yourself for the purpose of enjoyment, for the purpose of awe. Understanding is really only a by-product of the general enjoyment of poetry. Let me explain.
There are many things you consider when writing a poem. For me, meaning hardly comes first-- a feeling comes first. I hardly ever have an ending in mind when I start writing. And why? Because I enjoy poetry, mostly, for how it looks, how it sounds.
The by-product is understanding.
If it sounds like something beautiful, I feel like it is beautiful. If the array of words looks physically beautiful, I feel like it is beautiful. If there is a meaning in it, it is beautiful. But who knows what was going through the poet's head at the time? By the given poem, no one excet the poet.
To say that you must alter your art for the general public--for accessibility--is not only stifling expression, but underestimating the audience. It is saying, "If I don't understand this, no one will." It is blatantly limiting the beauty of poetry.
And all of that feels unnecessary. There is not one meaning in poetry--there's a thousand meanings. There's probably more than a million.
But "it is not necessary to understand--only necessary to love".
Sunday, November 28, 2010
I Capture the Castle

I saw the title movie recently and really liked it, although it ended so bittersweetly. Unfortunately, that's life. Altogether, I felt the main character Cassandra was alot like me.. even though I would've picked Henry Cavill/Stephen ANYFRIGGINGDAY over the other guy... but whatevs. lol. The title is so dreeeeamy that I can't get over it! I'll have to read the book, too. :)
All-State's coming up in like, a week.. oh geez, maybe less. It's scary because I always think I have it together, but I really don't. I have so much to practice. :( Sigh. I really hope I do better than I have in previous years. I always try to be proud of myself, and I am most of the time--but I'm a perfectionist. It's a great and terrible thing to be.
But this week in general has been pretty good. Thanksgiving was good, despite the chaos of having mom cook EVERYTHING for the first time in a long time, with Grandma still recovering from her broken hip and that kind of changing everything. But we got around it, and I don't wanna sound like it's her fault, 'cause it's not.
This past month or so in general has been bad, really bad. Just a lot of things happening all at once. My dad had gallbladder surgery after a horrible attack, and that made things better for a while, but recently he had another horrible attack and had to get his appendix out. The ER is never helpful either, as my mom didn't get home 'til 2AM on a school night after hours and hours of waiting. Thankfully he's much better now, but all of this merely happened while other horrible events occurred.. my Uncle that I never met, dying alone and under strange circumstances, and my grandma passing away after struggling for months on end. And not to mention my paternal grandmother's hip and memory issue. It's going pretty fast. I'm scared wondering if she'll remember me much longer.

It's a strange thing watching all your heroes die with time. And I don't just mean family; I mean famous people that somehow become part of who you are---people that seem like they could never die, like Paul McCartney, or Eddie Vedder, Neil Young, or Bob Dylan. And yet, they're people and they are willed to die. We think they're not human. We hope they're not human.
I can't imagine what it was like for my parents to watch their parent(s) pass away. For me, it was someone I barely knew, but to them--it was what they are to me. I can't fathom that day, what it would be like. I don't want to know.

Too frequently we read in the dark, with cluttered noise all around. It wasn't 'til today, reading in the utmost silence and daylight, that I realized it.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Blue Roses

But now, I just have to wonder if that's a good or bad thing.


Anyways, you get the gist. It was amazing. I got a t-shirt too, and it doesn't really fit, but it doesn't matter, because it commemorates the day that my mom and I went to see one of my favorite bands in the whole world. And they're just as perfect and on key and crazy live. I love them. Seriously.

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